Regardless of Reasons — I should have been quiet as a lamb before it’s shearers, Isa 53:7, committed no sin when insulted, 1 Pet 2:22-23, rather than “jealous as a husband’s fury” Prov 6:34, and “demanding,” Song 8:6. I ask for a chance to do it over, to prefer "power be made perfect in weakness,” and “gladly rejoice in insults," 2 Cor 12:9-10, "for when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Please ask God to change her heart, both God and she forgive me for keeping a record of wrongs, 1 Cor 13:5. If she was reconciling, who was I to bring it up? 2 Cor 5:19-20... Please let you on this site forgive me, John 20:23. Thank you. Let's resume the prayer, Luke 18:1.
May I truly be granted deep repentance, 2 Cor 7:10, and strengthened by the indwelling of Christ in my heart, and learn and show Christ’s love that passes knowledge, Eph 3:16-17, 18-19, and may He do exceeding abundantly beyond ANYTHING we can ask or IMAGINE… Eph 3:20… I have a strong imagination… Do “great and mighty things I do not know,” Jer 33:3, even, “greater works than the works He did since He has gone to The Father, John 14:12.
Holy Spirit, touch her heart to swallow any pride or illusion of reputation, forgive me for "finding out" and more importantly, for bringing it up (my counselors had advised I didn't bring it up but in a moment of provocation and weakness the reality of my holding a record of wrongs was disclosed), 1 Cor 13:5. We come before the Throne of Grace to receive MERCY and GRACE for HELP in time of NEED, Heb 4:16.
Strengthen me, our Cell-Group Leaders (and members) as well our families to PRAY and INTERCEDE for REPENTANCE, HUMILITY, and RECONCILIATION — WE HAVE A 16 Month Old SON… PLEASE LET the purpose for which the KINDNESS of GOD is intended is to LEAD US to REPENTANCE, Rom 2:4 -- Let her answer the calls, see she is deceived and BRING OTHER BELIEVERS, Acts 8:26-27, even ANGELS into her path, Heb 13:2, Heb 1:14, Gen 19:16.
Steer her heart (and all our hearts) as You do kings' hearts like channels of water, Prov 21:1. Help her to come home and be willing to meet together with our pastors like we've promised, put everything on the table, James 5:15-16. I know I have legal grounds for divorce but GLADLY PREFER she and I reconcile, she finds forgiveness and is truly saved. I don't want to be a stumbling block by anger (laughing my vehicles were clamped lead me to accusing her of selfishness in familial relationships and [hopefully] past sins). I should have born the reproach in silence, Isa 53:7, Acts 8:32, 1 Pet 2:22-23. Forgive me and grant me another chance and this time upon a firm foundation of The Sermon on The Mount, Matt 7:24, namely, turning the other cheek, Matt 5:39.
Father, in Your mercy, soften my wife’s heart -- take away the heart of stone, replace it with the heart of flesh, Ezek 36:26, and renew her mind to honor committment, Rom 12:2-3… (We committed to each other before YOU in the presence of many witnesses as YOU and others, myself included, remember -- that means something to God and righteous people, Ps 15:4). Please do this for the sake of the mystery of marriage as a portrayal of Christ and His Bride, Eph 5:32, for our children, Ps 73:15, Mal 2:15, and to declare the works of the Lord, Isa 38:19, Ps 118:16-17. Thank You in Jesus' Name.