Father, thank You Nothing is too difficult for You. Please Change My Wife's Heart: Let her forgive me for having bad timing and anger at her betrayal, lying, stealing... I ask You, Father, she repents & we "Stay Together..."
We Submit to God, Resist the Devil, so he FLEES from us, James 4:7, 1 PET 5:8. WE ASK YOU SOFTEN HER, we pray for Her, OUR SON, Me, her Mom and Family... Also calm my emotions over the betrayals and being angry and grieved at their hardness of her heart," Mk 3:15, in me subsides... I tried to reconcile before dinner, during dinner, and before bed... Mentioned the 7 times a day, Matt 18:22...
So the phrase, "Two steps forward, one step backwards" is one way to illustrate where we are right now... I think it's more like three steps forward, two steps backward, honestly...
Everything was going well after the visit from our home group leaders (she had skipped home group Friday -- they gave us a home visit and we went to a Seminar the next day, had dinner, went to church Sunday and on way back from church she tells me she is going to her mothers two (2) hrs away for her mom's birthday our Tues (Monday, USA). I couldn't believe it... She said I could come, I went, and here's were it gets messy...
Went to wife’s mother’s for her birthday — was “pitched” as list of things to do "for me" how it was — I just went to be with my son. It’s a matriarchal household w/ her Dad treated so poorly he is rarely present… Anyway, I suggested instead of a cake we buy something memorable (since her sisters would most likely buy her one (and they did). I figured we’d buy some earings or something equivalent to the price of a cake — WRONG...
She picked out something for $350 and an “Engagement Ring” (since she had sold hers and her wedding band last June or August)..
I had just spent $200 on her loan (I.E. -- failed business I said to not start) then she wants ANOTHER $200.
Told her privately I didn’t appreciate her keeping all spare change (Always grant her requests for our needs plus a little extra, ensures she has newer clothes, lives in a nice place, etc). She took it public outside & twisted it — shared how the $9000 was wasted and now an extra $400 a month is owed on a failed business. She denied it, got angry, I admittedly told her she was lying to my face, mentioned "bearing false witness," and "stealing."
Then she said I had to leave and she mentioned calling the police. Then her mom said I could stay and eat, and her sister said talk things over when we have cooler heads. She refused my humility and asking forgivness and recommendation to stay together for the sake of the child, mentioned she blew a lot of money on a bad investment that I'm still paying on and just asked she'd admit it -- saying she stays with family and keeps my son?
God, I heard You say, "lead the way," but I'm seemingly unable or not permitted... This is not over as I said it would be several months to stabilize... I ask for truth to prevail, for a chance to be merciful, BUT FOR REPENTANCE SO SHE STOPS TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME... Also, give me BETTER TIMING, WISDOM, PATIENCE, PROTECTION from TEMPTATION, SIN, EVIL, EVIL PEOPLE and THE EVIL ONE (Lk 11:4, Matt 6:13, Zeph 3:13, 2 Thes 3:2, John 17:15). PRESERVE ME O LORD, for in YOU I TAKE REFUGE, Ps 16:1... Thank you, in JESUS' NAME I pray, Amen