Prayer Answered! Update by Dominic D. at 1:52 am on Mon 2/27/2012 Thank You for Praying!
Thank you everyone, I have started to seek God again. Everything that was said to me was so amazing. I will be praying for others, as others have done for me. I hope to offer the same encouragement to others. You are all amazing wonderful people of God.
Original Prayer Request
I have been very disconnected from god. My parents are divorcing, my father is on welfare and money is tight for him, he cannot get a job now because he recently injured his knee, he cannot find doctors to him, because he is on Medical. My father takes care of my brother who is 13 and was just caught smoking pot with his friends.
My mother takes care of me, and she is out of a job and her unemployment has expired, she is having trouble finding a job. I cant seem to find the courage to get a job because of shyness. I have been feeling generally depressed about my financial situation.
Today for some reason i thought it would be a good idea to take some of my moms old perscription pain killers. I took a normal dose to get high, educated myself through the internet. The risk for addiction is high due to it being an opiate. Was high all day, to be honest it sucked, and now all i can think about is how stupid i am for doing that. I was very scared i had taken too much my breathing was very shallow. I am better now.
I feel so helpless, being only 16 i feel as if i have no control over my life. I'm scared i might try the pain killer thing again. I know what it feels like to know god and walk with him, this is so far from it, i constantly feel afraid of what will happen in the future regarding my father and mothers financial status. My mother was just recently out of the hospital due to losing excessive ammounts of blood, she is fine now, but the hospital visit was around $100,000 we will probably have to file bankruptcy. The hospital wrote off the other expensise, but we still have to pay the doctors. Im worried that this is what will happen to my father, i know he is suffering from depression.
I have a very distant relationship with my family, i would never tell my mother what happened even if i was dying because of overdose, i would lie to her and tell her that i was sick for some reason and she would have to take me to the hospital i dont want this to happen.
Thank you for the prayers, i need them so much. I will be returning the favor on this website. :D